Monday, April 11, 2011
I never knew my grandfather from my mother's side. It never occurred to me to ask why and where. Maybe, just maybe my child self had assumed his death or it just simply was part of the white elephant that my child self never really saw.
Today I put the finishing touches of the piece I would write for my Creative Writing class and upon reading it, the dam broke, the tears poured. Shamefully I admit I had never shed a tear upon his death simply because I never knew him. And now I cry for what is lost and what I would never get to know.
And later before I sleep, I will pray that my future offspring would never have this experience. It's so painful and yet it doesn't hurt anywhere but my head and my heart...
Today I put the finishing touches of the piece I would write for my Creative Writing class and upon reading it, the dam broke, the tears poured. Shamefully I admit I had never shed a tear upon his death simply because I never knew him. And now I cry for what is lost and what I would never get to know.
And later before I sleep, I will pray that my future offspring would never have this experience. It's so painful and yet it doesn't hurt anywhere but my head and my heart...
what we could have been, 1:22 am.
Friday, October 01, 2010
i hate how 'shit happens'. totally overbooked for the next two months or so, actually till the end of the year. sighs. this really sucks.
btw, i hate class. i hate classes dealing with figures and graphs and whatnot. seriously it wasn't my forte back then, it still isn't. really seem so pointless as I struggle to keep up with the class when it doesn't make any sense at all...
btw, i hate class. i hate classes dealing with figures and graphs and whatnot. seriously it wasn't my forte back then, it still isn't. really seem so pointless as I struggle to keep up with the class when it doesn't make any sense at all...
what we could have been, 11:41 pm.
Friday, September 17, 2010
We've entered a new point in time
where poetry does not have to rhyme
where the moon is not cheese
where the stars are only gas
where laughter means you're broken
where tears mean you're human
where music is for the dying
where news is for lying
where nothing is as it should be
where there is only you but no me:
where has our innocence gone?
We've enter a new place in life
where the darkness is light
where beauty is sin
where fear is believing
where seeing is deceiving
where rainbows hold no pot of gold
where the streets are desecrated
where windows are broken
where no doors are open
where we are truly alone:
where has our innocence gone?
We've started a new path
where words are not spoken
where hands are not holding on
where lies lead to "good-byes"
where dreams paint the world silver and gold
where children always do as they're told
where our songs have meaning
where our smiles mean joy
where no one is anyone's toy
where I belong to me and you to yourself:
where our innocence is all we have left.
~R.R. Cannon
where poetry does not have to rhyme
where the moon is not cheese
where the stars are only gas
where laughter means you're broken
where tears mean you're human
where music is for the dying
where news is for lying
where nothing is as it should be
where there is only you but no me:
where has our innocence gone?
We've enter a new place in life
where the darkness is light
where beauty is sin
where fear is believing
where seeing is deceiving
where rainbows hold no pot of gold
where the streets are desecrated
where windows are broken
where no doors are open
where we are truly alone:
where has our innocence gone?
We've started a new path
where words are not spoken
where hands are not holding on
where lies lead to "good-byes"
where dreams paint the world silver and gold
where children always do as they're told
where our songs have meaning
where our smiles mean joy
where no one is anyone's toy
where I belong to me and you to yourself:
where our innocence is all we have left.
~R.R. Cannon
what we could have been, 10:25 am.
Sunday, September 05, 2010
Just had home made breakfast with my bf. It's hilarious since neither of us can do much in the kitchen. Our potatoes were a total failure but the rest of the meal was edible, thank god! :)
Bf's watching POC:TWE now. Seriously, its hard to watch dvds with him coz he likes to skip to the parts he like. Ugh!
I love Romeo and Juliet-esque stories. <3 Feel so mushy and weepy whenever I watch or read those. Oh man oh man, if only I could write one as good as those.
Bf's watching POC:TWE now. Seriously, its hard to watch dvds with him coz he likes to skip to the parts he like. Ugh!
I love Romeo and Juliet-esque stories. <3 Feel so mushy and weepy whenever I watch or read those. Oh man oh man, if only I could write one as good as those.
what we could have been, 10:19 am.
Thursday, September 02, 2010
Is it my fault if you refuse to keep in contact?
I won't let this person make me feel guilty anymore. I do try my best but the fact that you're a spoilt, immature person trying to play at being a grown up infuriates me. If you do want to be treated and recognized as a responsible youth, please learn some manners, tact and accountability.
I won't let this person make me feel guilty anymore. I do try my best but the fact that you're a spoilt, immature person trying to play at being a grown up infuriates me. If you do want to be treated and recognized as a responsible youth, please learn some manners, tact and accountability.
what we could have been, 7:41 pm.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
just watched YOG handball semi-finals. EXHILARATING! omggg. i am so in love with the players yaaaaaaaaaa. le sigh. hot hot hot. now i understand why so many of my friends have fallen in love with those pesky korean singers/actors. gosh darn it. the players are so cute (although a little young). and the french, brazil and egyptian players aren't too shabby either. looks and skill-wise of course. xD
other news. i'm still looking for mahjong kakis!! like seriously, please, if you're not too pro and not too green and agreeable to playing with money, please please get in contact. my hands are like itching to dry swim.
other news. i'm still looking for mahjong kakis!! like seriously, please, if you're not too pro and not too green and agreeable to playing with money, please please get in contact. my hands are like itching to dry swim.
what we could have been, 11:22 pm.
Friday, August 13, 2010
1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 81, and find line 4.
No book near me.
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What can you touch?
The edge of the table.
3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Lie to Me
4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
3.30?
5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
3.51
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Pages being turned, someone sniffing, people talking.
7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Lunchtime. Walk around and buy lunch.
8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Fanfic.
9. What are you wearing?
Green romper, white tee.
10. Did you dream last night?
Yeah.
11. When did you last laugh?
Earlier this afternoon
12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Bits of blu-tack. Post its and papers.
13. Seen anything weird lately?
Some trashy looking dude attempting to swagger his way while being filmed.
14. What do you think of this quiz?
No opinion.
15. What is the last film you saw?
Salt
16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
My own house?
17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
Erm. I want a pet so bad I considered buying hermit crabs?
18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
No discrimination.
19. Do you like to dance?
With some people, yeah.
20. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Kathryn Elysia
21. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Travis Peter
22. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Quite often, yeah.
23. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the "pearly gates"?
Honeymoon suite with Piotr Rasputin (aka Colossus), right this way.
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Yes, I'm not dead. Yes, I was bored. Yes, I'm not posting anything of much value today.
No book near me.
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What can you touch?
The edge of the table.
3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Lie to Me
4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
3.30?
5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
3.51
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Pages being turned, someone sniffing, people talking.
7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Lunchtime. Walk around and buy lunch.
8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Fanfic.
9. What are you wearing?
Green romper, white tee.
10. Did you dream last night?
Yeah.
11. When did you last laugh?
Earlier this afternoon
12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Bits of blu-tack. Post its and papers.
13. Seen anything weird lately?
Some trashy looking dude attempting to swagger his way while being filmed.
14. What do you think of this quiz?
No opinion.
15. What is the last film you saw?
Salt
16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
My own house?
17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
Erm. I want a pet so bad I considered buying hermit crabs?
18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
No discrimination.
19. Do you like to dance?
With some people, yeah.
20. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Kathryn Elysia
21. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Travis Peter
22. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Quite often, yeah.
23. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the "pearly gates"?
Honeymoon suite with Piotr Rasputin (aka Colossus), right this way.
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Yes, I'm not dead. Yes, I was bored. Yes, I'm not posting anything of much value today.
what we could have been, 3:50 pm.
